I posted two videos to TikTok a few days ago and to my surprise, crickets…

I've heard people say over and over again how easy it is to grow on TikTok, but to me, it doesn't seem to be the case.

Maybe I'm too late to the party, or maybe I have the wrong expectation again.

Or maybe I'm just plain naive and stupid.

This newsletter might be the most embarrassing for me to write, but I'm gonna do it anyway.

On Jun 25th, I enrolled in Adam Enfroy's blogging course, Blog Growth Engine. At the time, I was in the middle of Ali Abdaal's cohort-based course — PTYA.

I knew I shouldn't have enrolled in a course while taking another course. It's stupid. I wouldn't be able to focus on either of them.

But I had been waiting for the course to launch for over a year, and it's 60% OFF. Sure, I could wait for someone to pirate it and just torrent it for either free or a minimal cost. But then, I'll lose the Facebook group support.

In a word, it's fucking FOMO.

Anyway, I've been going back and forth on YouTube and blogging over the past few weeks. And I was making slow progress because 1) I wasn't focused and 2) I kept doubting myself.

It took me over a year to ruminate the idea of starting a personal blog under my name, commit to it, and start getting okay with it.

And that's blogging.

With YouTube, it's a lot harder.

Not only does the idea of filming myself talking freaks the shit out of me, but I also think speaking English is way too hard for me.

Indeed, the entire thing was overwhelming.

Granted, after making a handful of videos, I'm getting better at it and more comfortable with it. Still, it's taking too much time to make very little progress.

So what does this all mean?

Actually, I'm not sure. On the one hand, I find making YouTube videos way more fun than writing blog posts; on the other hand, I don't want to give up blogging completely for any one of the social media platforms.

At the end of the day, my blog and my newsletter are the only assets that belong to me. All those social media profiles, however big the following might be, it's not mine.

One simple (and sudden) algorithm update and everything could be gone.

So I think I should recalibrate my priorities and daily schedule to spend more time on blogging and YouTube. I want both things to have my even focus, even if it means it'd take me longer to gain traction.

I'm here for the long game, so I'm not afraid of that.

Furthermore, I'm in the middle of creating my first Skillshare class. Hopefully, in the near future, I could at least generate some revenue from it.

Until next week,

Weekly Recommendations

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Johnny Harris published a video the other day anatomizing why Cyprus is divided by four. I love his fascinating storytelling skills. I'm sure you'll love it too.

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This is an old video podcast by Colin and Samir, but I just watched it the other day and thought it's good and I want to share it with you. In this podcast, Jimmy aka Mr. Beast talks about his crazy stories of being a YouTuber. Sure, his methods of YouTubing may not work for most people, but his work ethic is inspiring. It's definitely worth spending two hours of your day watching it.

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Another video by Colin and Samir about the virality of the huge TikToker, Khaby Lame. There's so much crazy stuff to discover from this video. If you follow Khaby Lame on TikTok and have been wondering why he got so famous in just two years, you need to watch this video.