A few days ago, I finished watching a Chinese drama.

Yeah, I know I shouldn't be watching drama since I have a ton of work piling up. But hey, you gotta find a sustainable way to keep things going, right?

So, and the end of the drama, a poor family was able to get a bank loan to start a small business. They have debts to pay off, so they work really hard.

I know that's just a scripted story, but that really got me thinking:

Why can't I do the same?

You see, most (Chinese) people I know don't spend time doing soul-searching to figure out what their life purposes are.

They need (and want) more money, so they work hard to get it. That simple.

For some reason, I've completely forgotten about this simple principle:

You need money. You find a way to make money and you work your ass off for it.

Over the past few years, I've been trying to “figure out” what niche I should go after — and worse — what my life purpose is.

Now, don't get me wrong — I'm not saying that life purpose is BS. It's just that, looking back, I've never seen anyone in my life struggling with that kind of thing. Yet, they're able to achieve success in life.

At least, they're able to take care of themselves and their family.

That's what really matters, isn't it?

The bottom line?

While spiritual practices are great for increasing our self-awareness so that we'll have more clarity to life and be able to make better decisions.

But it could also be an excuse for not doing things that we should be doing but are afraid of doing.

Everything could be a double-edged sword. So finding a balance is key.

Speaking of doing things that we should be doing but are afraid of doing…

I filmed the A-rolls for a video one day before publishing my last newsletter. I've spent the last entire week editing it…

… and I have yet to get it done.

I don't know why it's taking me so long this time.

Granted, it's a super long video. Almost half an hour long. Still, it shouldn't take this long.

Over the past week, I've been going back and forth trying to get the editing done. I don't know exactly what's holding me back.

It could be the tediousness. It could be the disgusting feeling of editing my own footage. Or it could be the uncertainty of going on this YouTube path.

On the one hand, I'm excited to find out what will happen and how far I could go. But on the other hand, it's scary AF.

I've been trying to “put myself out there” for 15 months now and it still feels intimidating.

But I know I won't stop. I may be slow, but I won't stop.

I'll do better to push myself to get this video done ASAP, and then I'll start working on my first Skillshare class.

Guess that's it for this week.

Talk soon,
Kim

Weekly Recommendations

🎬 Watch

This video by Matthew Dicks is the perfect embodiment of the “5-second moment” of storytelling that he emphasizes in his book, Storyworthy. Whether or not you've read the book, that's a great story.

🎬 Watch

In this video, Gerald Undone talks about the “struggles” of running a tech YouTube channel and dealing with sponsors. I can relate to it because my channel is kinda in that niche.

👨🏻‍🎓 Learn

Revisited Marques Brownlee's Skillshare class about growing a YouTube channel to refresh my Final Cut Pro editing skills. A ton of golden nuggets in there.